(Counted version)

 

We haven’t had nearly long enough dear, 10

It hasn’t even been a full year…9

How can I prepare to say my goodbye…10

The thought of losing you, makes me want to cry! 11

 

It has to be a misdiagnosis, 10

The doctors they just can not be right, 9

I refuse to accept the prognosis, 10

I want to be in this fight, be your white knight!11

 

I do refuse, I want to call him out, 10

I am ready, to stand up and shout, 9

It goes against manners I learned in school, 10(11)

But I’m ready… to challenge him to a duel! 11 (12)

 

How could he do this? 5

How could he be so cru-el? 7

How could God arrange this? 6

Has my faith made me a fo-ol? 8

 

If this is punishment, what did I do? 10

Why won’t somebody give me a clue? 9

Oh my love, I hate to see you suffer, 10

How can I help and become like a buffer? 11

I meant well when we went for hypnosis, 10

For all your pain to alleviate…9

I didn’t mean to induce psychosis,10

It was just a treatment to investigate…11

 

In the beginning, I still had real hope, 10

It turns out, that hope was a bad joke 9

We tried chemo, drugs, even Rei-ki, 10

Then, pastoral care was suggested meekly 11

 

How could he do this? 5

How could he be so cru-el? 7

How could God arrange this? 6

Has my faith made me a fo-ol? 8

 

Big pills, little pills, purple, green and red, 10

The shelf of bottles filled me with dread 9

Cracking a smile, even in a stupor 10

You followed doctor’s advice like a trooper, 11

 

Oh your lingering bravery my love, 10

It must have been a gift from above 9

You refused to accept until the end, 10

That gave us time for our broken hearts to mend 11

 

You had time to say meaningful goodbyes, 10

Heartfelt, full of dignity and peace 9

When finally you had to close your eyes, 10

For both of us it was a blessed release 11

 

There are no words left 5

to express my strong bereft, 7

Faith will guide me through this, 6

Strength given through her reminisce 8